Wednesday, December 15, 2010

.... it kill me.

When she does all her crazy moves…

Continuously unreasonable giggles….

Displaying her big sweet smile…

She makes my heart leap in joys.

And it stir up all my dead strings of sense.
But...
when she lay there,
quietly.motionless.
And a cry that only my heart can hear...
It kills me.
And when she said "Mama tolong Ya Mama. Sakit"
My heart stop. Only tears still exist to articulate my pain.

****

Just bow your head and give your cares to me.
Just close your eyes and fall into the sweetest dream, cause in my loving arms.
You're safe as you will ever be so hush my dear and sleep.
~Celine Dion~


















Thursday, October 21, 2010

+ing


Driving.Parking.Running.Punching.Eating.Rushing.Panting.Driving.Opening.Signing.Arranging.Distributing.Walking.Watching.Checking.Swishing.Mumbling.Standing.Walking.Gossiping.Yawning.Strolling.Counting.Sweating.Cursing.Waiting.Stacking.Packing.Staring.

It’s all about I.N.V.I.G.I.L.A.T.I.N.G.

Friday, October 8, 2010

Lemony Lemon


I'm sitting here in the boring room
It's just another rainy Sunday afternoon

I'm wasting my time
I got nothing to do
I'm hanging around

I'm waiting for you

But nothing ever happens and I wonder

Lemon tree. It used to be my song for the day. Now I’m singing it again. It just this time around it was sung with the correct melancholic melody. And I am part of the lyrics. It just the day is different... but I AM wasting and hanging and waiting for YOU.

And wretchedly, nothing happen. And nothing change.

Saturday, October 2, 2010

We Are Teacher


"Education in Malaysia is on-going efforts towards further developing the potential of individuals in a holistic and integrated manner, so as to produce individuals who are intellectually, spiritually, emotionally and physically balanced and harmonic, based on a firm belief in and devotion to God. Such an effort is designed to produce Malaysian citizens who are knowledgeable and competent, who possess high moral standards and who are responsible and capable of achieving high level of personal well-being as well as being able to contribute to the harmony and betterment of the family, the society and the nation at large."

.... that is why we are working on SATURDAY...

Arigato…

The moment I opened my eyes I heard this tiny husky voice “Mama dh ‘angun”…

A’lillah (Syukran jazilan) I’m still alive. I’m still breathing and the voice is a reminder again of the The Most Gracious- The Almighty – for what HE gave to me- My dearest beloved one.

Sometime we tend to take for granted the ability that He gives. Talk,walk,hug or as simple as breath. And today, the story begins with ‘fabulous fart’…

Long story cut to the short version, she got stuck in her inner problem; can’t release the wonderful but killer air! She can’t fart. CANNOT FART. Duh… I laugh at it for several times, but then to think ‘bout it again, remembering her in pain face; pale lips, blotted tummy, messy hair (any connection?) btw : she been admitted in GH for 1month for that funny-complex problem. It scares me. So I asked myself, have I been grateful lately? Have I said enough thanks to people that revolve around me? Have I say that I appreciate what people do to me or things that came about in my life?

p/s: Thank you for reading this!!!

Feeling gratitude and not expressing it is like wrapping a present and not giving it.

~William Arthur Ward ~